My Journey: Origins (Continued)
...While readjusting to the American culture, I underwent a series of deep introspection. It was like I was experiencing what I was already familiar with but through different lenses. The feeling at the time was unexplainable. From that came to the passion to share something, or create something. It was then that I began a self-imposed "Journey to Self-Love" that I have been on ever since.
Fast forward to 2018, during my summer internship, I was stuck in an office for at least 8 hours a day sorting through legal documents, *snorrr*. Somehow, I began listening to podcasts centered around entrepreneurship and business-building and realized that the principles they were talking about were relatable to so many other areas of my life. One day it clicked for me: the reason that all of these business gurus and entrepreneurs are so successful is that they had a mindset shift! I had this strong urge to share this revelation but I still didn't know how I was going to accomplish that.
A few months later, it dawned on me that I could actually be the one to create a podcast of my own to share that kind of content. I was set to release the podcast by the end of 2018, however, I was terrified. What do they call people who don't do something because they're too scared? I'll let ya'll figure that one out. But Me? Too scared?
A list of things I've done that is way scarier than launching a podcast:
- Moved to NYC at 17.
- Cut ALL of my hair off... Twice!
- A horse literally bit my finger off.
- Swallowed bleach (ask my mom for details).
- Rode on the back of a motorcycle in heels and a jean jacket.
- Jumped off of a cliff... more than three times.
- Cheerleading. (Don't argue with me on this one)
- Did I mention I moved to NYC at 17?
Even after all of this, I still didn't do it. I literally let the fear of putting myself out there stop me from doing something I was truly passionate about. Well, me being my Scorpio self, I wanted to really understand why I was feeling that way. I had to explore all of the possible reasons I didn't want to do what I really wanted to do. It was then that I began to break down the fear of not wanting to start.